Showing posts with label love yourself. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love yourself. Show all posts

Wednesday, January 10, 2018

Hold On




Can’t let go of what you never had... the only thing you have to hold on to in this life is yourself. Love yourself and you will always have love.

In Buddhism... to love isn’t about owning someone or making them yours. Love is accepting that someone will choose to walk alongside you because they share goals and they accept you as you are, flaws included. 

Making your life and living space beautiful is an extension of that love. You can have an exquisite dreamhouse but if you don’t love living in it, why would anyone else? Think of yourself, your vessel as a Dreamhouse and pour all the amazing love, energy, devotion and attention into taking care of it and building it up. When you find you love it, you’ll realize that you won’t allow others to harm it, including yourself. And you’ll want to share it with someone who values & cares for it as much as you do.

Kisses, m.


Monday, November 27, 2017

Light & Dark



Within us all there is the potential to be both light and dark. The trick is embracing both your light and dark elements to find balance. 


-m.



Tuesday, August 15, 2017

I Will...




I will tell you to
Get up in the morning
And face the world.

I will tell you to be strong
And fight, keep going.

I will tell you everything
Will be okay.

I will push you, inspire
You, motivate you, and
Encourage you to be more.

I will not stop.
I will continue.

You are so much more.
You can be anything,
All you have to do is believe. 

But it is a shame,
How we know what is good
For others,
But don't know what's good
For ourselves.

Listen to yourself,
And listen often.
Doing so will be
the kind of thing that will
Save you.

Save you from killing yourself
Or killing someone.

Listen to yourself.
You know yourself better.
Don't let the voice inside
of you get away.


~ R.M. Drake

Thursday, July 20, 2017

Easy



It's easy to copy someone and much harder to put in effort to make a life built on your own. But the effort you put in will always make it worth the work. Anything worth doing will never be easy. 

~m.

Monday, July 10, 2017

Glitter




A life without glitter is no life at all 

~ Toni Collette.

Everyone deserves to sparkle and shine. Love yourself and let it shine out like glitter on your face. 

Kisses, m.


PC: Rumi & Kozdra

Thursday, July 6, 2017

Want Love






Everyone wants love yet they're afraid of it. We're all afraid to open up, be vulnerable & say to someone: you know what, I adore you, I love you & I’m afraid you might leave me one day.  


But I say it to people anyway. Some have left. Some have stayed. Either way... it isn't about me. 


I still adore them and love the people that come and go in my life. Do I always like them? No not always. You don't have to like the people you love or adore all the time. Why? Loving others isn't about them. It's about us. 


Buddhism helps me a great deal with the attachment part of my relationships & friendships. I can't say it's easy to see people go but I know their journey has to take them away from mine. Practicing non-attachment does soften the departures. 

You want love? Let yourself be loved by others and love others in return without expectation. Then you will have love. It's not always about romance and love affairs. Not everyone will love you back. Just know that love is there everyday. Everyone has the potential to feel it. It's up to you to be open to it. 

Receive love. Give love. Share love. Be love. 

Kisses! 
~m.

Monday, July 3, 2017

Live Your Life




life requires a bit of effort, you get what you put into it. laugh when your happy, frown when your sad, dont be afraid to let the teardrops fall, soak it all in, dance to the beat of your heart.

when love knocks on your door, let it in.. dont be afraid to take a risk, cherish your friends, theres a reason they are there. 

play in the rain & swim in the ocean, accept that your heart will get broken, once.. twice, or a 1000 times and you will love again.

sing in the shower and dance in the mirror, roll the windows down and let the wind blow your hair, makes mistakes, dont regret them. 

realize there is no such thing as MR RIGHT or MS RIGHT, but if someone loves you, let them. They wont be a knight in shining armor, or a princess to be rescued, he/she wont sweep you off your feet, but they will catch you when you fall.. they're not supposed to make you happy, they're supposed to make you happier.. find happiness in yourself. its there if you look for it. 

Take lots of pictures with lots of goofy faces, eat popsicles & read the jokes on the stick. LIVE YOUR LIFE to make you smile and to make it worth while, cherish the moments you have because one day it'll be GONE.

~ unknown 

Sunday, June 25, 2017

Honestly


 

Honestly everything is in balance... For all that we are there is all that we are not.

I'm wrong quite often. I may not know what's the right way to do things or proceed all the time. Don't judge me for my guise of confidence because I'm hiding my inexperience & vulnerability. It's how I cope, I'm human and embrace my mistakes and try to make right by others on my journey.

I don't deliberately hurt people. I find that is in bad taste to compete, slander or behave cruelly when I don't get my way. Not getting your way is a good thing sometimes. 

I'm not perfect but I no longer feel the need to get even and then intentionally hurt people because I think they wronged me... That's disrespectful to myself and others. 

I love myself and respect others so I do my best to apologize when I'm wrong and let it go when people are intentionally unkind. Karma will right the wrongs of others. Not me. 

Life is too beautiful and the journey too short to waste on such pettiness.

Love yourself more.

Thursday, June 8, 2017

Self Love


 

What is self love? You probably want to smack someone when they tell you to love yourself but it's really necessary and an integral part of loving others. Taking care of yourself is a form of self respect and ultimately the relationship you have with yourself sets the tone for all your relationships. Here's a few examples of what self love looks like & it's not always about spoiling yourself... 

"Self Love means...

1. Choosing ourselves, even if it means upsetting others and not being popular anymore. Even if it means we leave a party before anyone else because we feel tired, overwhelmed, or just plain feel done with the crowd.

2. Telling what is true for us, not swallowing words that express what we truly feel, think, or want to do.

3. Giving our body the nurturing, rest, exercise, and comfort it needs to the best of our ability.

4. Wearing clothes that make us feel good and fit our personality instead of wearing clothes that are in fashion that we use to impress others.

5. Building a life that we love while we are single instead of waiting for our prince/princess to show up to explore life and to be happy.

6. Accepting ourselves with the good, the bad, the ugly, the sexy, and the smelly—all of it—and appreciate ourselves as whole people.

7. Making time to do whatever we love, just to play, without worrying about wasting time.

8. Owning our inner and outer beauty and complimenting ourselves without feeling guilty, arrogant, or entitled.

9. Not rehashing our past mistakes and dragging ourselves to a dark place when we know that we can only learn from the past; we can’t change it.

10. Spending some quality, connected time with ourselves instead of always watching TV or wasting time on the Internet.

11. Using discretion when sharing our heart, self, and dreams with others.

12. Trusting the path that our soul is on and making a genuine effort to become a conscious co-creator of our destiny.

13. Not blaming our parents for our current issues, and looking for ways to heal our wounds and change our dysfunctional patterned behaviors by reaching out to ministers, therapists, coaches, and healers.

14. Following what our gut/intuition says instead of living out of our brain and ego.

15. Staying in our integrity, both when it comes to ourselves and when interacting with others out in the world. This includes keeping ourselves in check regarding patterns such as lying, manipulating, co-depending, withholding, and pretending.

16. Allowing ourselves to dream big, without contaminating these dreams with judgments, our perceived limitations, or a lack of sense of deserving.

17. Knowing how we’re spending our emotional, mental, financial, and physical energy, and whether these activities bring back joy, connection, nurturing, rest, and creativity to our lives.

18. Taking responsibility for all of our experiences. Knowing that we have the ability for deeper self awareness and access to our intuition when it comes to making life choices.

19. Not labeling ourselves with others’ opinions of us, while having the courage to look inside to see if there might be some truth to them.

20. Learning to set boundaries that protect and nurture our relationships, with ourselves and others.

21. Allowing ourselves to make mistakes and not berating ourselves for making them. Instead, choosing to appreciate our desire to learn and grow.

22. Refusing to seek permission or approval to be ourselves. Recognizing that we, like everyone else, deserve to take up space on this planet just as who we are right now.

23. Loving and accepting ourselves even when we fail miserably at some of these self-love goals."


Kisses, m.

Tuesday, June 6, 2017

Real Love


 



He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect.


But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to him and give him the most you can.


He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break.


Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect more than he can give.


Don’t analyze.


Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there.


Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you.


~Bob Marley



Real Love isn't perfect.. It's not one-sided. There's no version of it. It's not a fairytale or a storybook with a happy ending and doesn't always come easy. Love is overcoming obstacles & facing challenges with someone who wants to face them with you. It's not about holding on and never letting go. The right person will have flaws and shortcomings just like you but they'll want to stay without being asked to and removing you from their life is the last thing they will ever want to do.. Leaving your side is the last thing they want to do but they'll do it if you ask them to because love only wants happiness for their beloved. Look, love is hard sometimes but it's absolutely worth it when you find it. 


Kisses, m.


Photo Credit: Tyler Shields

Monday, October 17, 2016

Being


 

“Be kind to yourself. Remember that when you abuse yourself, you will experience the anger, regret, and apathy of the bully as well as the depression, anxiety, and insecurity of the victim. Whatever you do, be kind to yourself.” 
 Vironika Tugaleva

Sometimes being is incredibly hard. It requires a moment to center yourself. Meditate. You have to remember that you are a human, and being a human is difficult. You want to do it all perfect, but sometimes things outside of your control force you to do otherwise. Those obstacles that stop you from doing what you want perfectly happen to get in the way sometimes. 

Take a deep breath. Try to remember that you, yourself are not your accomplishments or failures. The greatest way for you to move past critical thoughts, negative self talk and unclear feelings is by being gentler and kinder to yourself. Once you manifest positive voices on the inside and suppress the negative ones, your outlook on the outside will be improved. If you would wish someone else a great day, then have the same wish within your heart for your own great day. Self compassion is the key to feeling good about yourself

Having compassion means you don't mistreat others or let people mistreat you, including yourself. Having a bad reaction is human so don't beat yourself up. Even a zen master will give someone the finger in traffic if the right conditions present themselves. It doesn't make it right. Being kinder within helps you recognize & control yourself in moments where there's a more compassionate way. Love yourself.

Thursday, July 28, 2016

Life...


No one is going to save you but yourself. You want something, go out and get it, do it or make it happen yourself. It may not be easy but anything worth doing or having is worth what you invest in it. The universe owes you nothing. 

Tuesday, June 21, 2016

Kindness Louder Now



The world would be a better place if everyone used kindness loudly to spread love and good cheer. Kindness and compassion will always be louder than meanness. 

People who gossip are about as pleasant and as likeable as people who are liars. Why? It's needless behavior. Yet, it persists. What can you do? It's simple. You do nothing. Let the person or people speaking of you or about others have their say. What you can do is excuse yourself and mention that you don't wish to discuss this person anymore. Descending into silence allows the conversation to persist and will only demonstrate your support for it. 

Of course the gossip about moi has reached my ears. While I'm not perfect I refuse to discuss it and there's no need to defend myself. It's unnecessary. If people want to believe or perpetuate rumors then they are not people I want in my life. 

The Dalai Lama insist you live in a way so no one believes the awful things others say. So that's all I can do. I suggest everyone do the same. 

If you must spread news of someone, share how wonderful they are doing with others! Share how others can help or support them. Don't spread their misfortune. You change the world temperature by sharing good cheer and positive wishes. 

However, if you feel the need to vent... try saying the awful things you wish to say out loud to yourself first. I'm sure a little alone time in your car, your bedroom or bathroom will do. If you find these unspeakable things too great to repeat to the person it's directed at or about then don't repeat it to others. Try rising to show kindness before descending into silence when others act badly.

Lady and gentleman rules: Do not speak badly of someone thinking it will better you. It will only make you look worse. 

Here's a story about someone without kindness...

Enjoy!
Kisses, m.


Dick
(3-28-2011)

“Dick!”

An open-handed slap accompanies the sharp tongue attached to an irritated woman who has already stormed away as people look on in the otherwise quiet restaurant. It’s a face and name I haven’t seen or heard in a while, but that doesn’t make this moment any less satisfying to watch.

Most women never forget about Dick once they met him. I know cause I never could.

After his date left the table Richard Blackwood sat very still with a smug smile on his face and motioned for the waiter to bring over another bottle of wine. Richard Blackwood was used to hearing his name spoken in this manner. In fact he often took great pleasure in hearing it roll off the tongue of women. He most definitely enjoyed being the thing that rolled out of their mouths. And by ‘this manner’ I am of course referring to the condescending tone. However, to Richard when hearing his name the tone mattered very little at all. Not nearly as much as hearing them say it like that…

Dick.

Whether it was breathy, brash or baritone Richard Blackwood couldn’t seem to get enough when a woman said his name. And in the end they all said it.

Just like that.

Richard Blackwood was an arrogant man with a knack for making everything unpleasant.  He insisted that everyone he met call him Dick. Some women often found this request a bit hard to swallow and were instantly offended. Dick took this opportunity to make their embarrassment as humiliating as possible. Often chastising those women by remarking, “Now a little Dick never hurts now and again, unless you want it to.”

To say he wasn’t a nice man would be a rash understatement. There wasn’t a single person that could stand Dick for more than five minutes. Something was awful in everything he said, especially about others. With his nasty attitude Dick could hardly be mistaken for a human being let alone find himself filled with any type of compassion.

And that was the proverbial icing on the cake.

For you see, Dick Blackwood had the ability to encourage others to see things as miserably as possible and relished in it. Dick could find the unhappiest person in a room and make them feel worse. If ever you doubted your position while standing on the window ledge twenty stories up, Dick would have no problem helping you find your motivation… to jump.

Honestly who wouldn’t after talking to Dick? You might jump, if meant getting away.

Although Dick was far from superior he had something a woman might put up a fight for. Something about the way he wore his pants too tight helped to demonstrate the reason that outweighed his obnoxiousness.

Some men are simply attractive by the qualities they possess. Charm. Finesse. Attitude. Dick wasn’t one of those kinds of men. Attractive came with the package. Like a hotel perk it was a great room with a view that happened to be located in the acid-tripping smoking section. And like the poorly misplaced hotel room, the self -serving arrogant condescending qualities were just the tip of the iceberg. Below the shallow surface lay a man that could only be described in one way…

DICK!

Dick is the kind of man your mother ought to have warned you about, except that chances are she probably wasted her time on him as well. For despite his shortcomings, he definitely had a way with women. An unprecedented way of getting them to do exactly as he wished before making sure they never stuck around for too long. At least that’s what he liked to believe. As with a man like Dick you have to understand he believes he has an agenda. Unbeknownst to him, this way with women had nothing to do with him.

You see, all a woman really wanted from Dick was to come between him and his pants and sometimes that meant more than she bargained for.

Someone might tell you a silence is worth a thousand words. Well that person never met Dick. Dick almost never shut up. He might tell you that your hair is all wrong or that you look like your left leg is shorter than your right. This is before telling you that you’re almost as pretty as the old woman sitting next to you. All of this and more guaranteed to get you to talk to him when talking to him was the last thing you wanted to do.

Somewhere between introducing himself and chatting with a woman he would start in. Slowly but surely he would look for a tiny vulnerability that guaranteed he wouldn’t stop talking. If only to prove that he was completely right by making you completely miserable, but by that point it’s too late. Invested in the stock of flesh and unable to pull out. You’re already in too far to turn back now.

Dick Blackwood happened to be anything but charming when he crossed my path. I met him on the street with his tight pants and unpleasantness. Something on the inside may have told me to go the other way when he said hello but instead I smiled back. And once he started in I couldn’t get enough. I found myself agreeing to so much more than dinner and drinks before I could stop.

Dick used insult and unpleasantness to get what he wanted. Thinking it worked, as it had so many times before, he continued because Dick liked it when he got his way. More than anything else he was contented to recognize this. So it came to me as no surprise when his lack of regard and vanity extended well beyond his introduction.

Dinner with Dick was an exercise in restraint. Everything he had learned about me became fodder for insult. It was always how I was inadequate and when I wasn’t the rest of the restaurant was completely worthless. And when the rest of the world wasn’t worthless he was telling about all the things he wanted to do after he took me home if I didn’t ruin things. My ruining things wasn’t the problem I had worried about when he kept talking. But he continued.

After the first course I stayed when wanted to leave. Even after I thought I had enough of him I remained. When I remember how I wanted to walk away from the table I was wondering how anyone got into bed with this man. Then I realized if I had walked away at dinner instead of putting up with a little more I might never have understood why women took as much as they did from Dick…

Control.

It was the piece of the man that you had right from the start. 

When I think back to that night when I separated that man from his pants. I remember how I let Dick roll off my tongue more times than I can count. And I know what it was that I couldn’t forget. It was the power of knowing what sent that man spinning. Spinning because he thought he had the upper hand and knowing that in one word he couldn’t get enough. And remembering how I walked away from a man like that because it was my decision when I came and left from his life. Something smug continues to widen his grin across from me, when I realize what it is. As he’s pouring the wine his date is coming back. And I can’t blame her. I might have done the same thing.


Photo Credit: Tyler Shields

Monday, May 4, 2015

BIG Deal




Women forget that to somebody, they’re a big deal. You might not have met that person yet…but you’re someone’s Angelina Jolie. You’re someone’s giant great big deal and they won’t be able to believe that they get to wake up next to you every morning. But you have to believe that about yourself.

You know – someone is going to be your Ryan Reynolds someday. Someone is going to be your thing, like “How did I get so lucky?” But if you don’t treat yourself with value, the person that will also value you is not going to come. 

Women don’t remember that they’re going to be a big deal to someone, because they have that panic of wanting to lock something down and wanting to feel that they’re something to someone instead of everything to the right one.

—  Amiira Ruotola

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

Love Being Yourself!


     




“The supermodel Claudia Schiffer was famously “discovered” while dancing at a disco in Dusseldorf. After she became one of the most famous and well-paid models in the world, young women began flocking to the same nightclub, all hoping for their own chance at celebrity. But here’s the thing about Claudia Schiffer in the German nightclub: it wasn’t about her being at the right nightclub, it was about her being Claudia Schiffer. Ideally, if there really is a person out there for everyone, they're a person who likes you, not whether you went to the right nightclub, or wore the right proportions of lipstick and eyeshadow, or put yourself out there enough (whatever that means). And hopefully, to him, you'll  be Claudia Schiffer.”

- Lilit Marcus

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

The Kindest Kind





“If someone says something unkind about you, live so no one will believe it.” – Dalai Lama

The Dalai Lama often is someone I look to for the questions, answers and guidance when there are none for me to seek out. I delight in the joy of the world. The simple pleasures. As of late, I have not been able to focus totally on the joy in simply living. I am faced with a unique conundrum. It is an unkindness and it continues despite my efforts to try and quash the rift. 

There is a person who I assume does not like me, yet wishes to be more like me. The situation confuses me to no end. I find it very awkward to have someone traipsing through my friends list to add more people so we will have them in common, imitating my interests for more commonalities, rebuking my support, refusing to be supportive of my creative efforts yet copying them and then making untrue conversations about my personal life. All I can do is continue to live as the Dalai Lama says so no one will believe the awfulness. Yet I now have to. I am faced with having to dispel an rumor thanks to an uncomfortable convo yesterday. In order to protect a guy friend (or two?) of mine from slander I am sharing more about moi than I really care to...

For the record, I'm not dating anyone. I didn't date anyone or had a date with anyone in about 3 months because I haven't had the time or rather I haven't met anyone who he & I mutually wanted to make time in our busy lives for dating each other. 

However, herein lies the trouble... I have had the pleasure of spending time with a few different friends who I adore and are all great fellows. They really deserve the best; as perfect of women or men as their eye beholds... but they are guys who truly think nothing more of me than as a gal pal and again I see them as a dear friend. To imply that they are or ever were anything more than a friend is vicious and cruel to whomever they are currently dating or talking to. It's not appropriate to spread lies. Now I am ecstatic when any of my friends meet someone special and I am very protective of that for them. I'm uncertain why an untruth is being propelled. But ladies... If you want to date a guy tell him or ask him! Lady rules: Don't trash other women or men for an in with anyone. It will come back to you dolls! It's not cool.

Furthermore I don't think its cool to selectively chase men and force them to date you, so I don't do it. I talk to men and much like other people I might flirt with a cute guy but not behave badly. Certainly not with my friends. I may joke & flatter them but it's all in good energy if you really get to know me. I like to build people up because most people are always trying to tear others down. I'm not saying you rule out your friends for love, if things evolved naturally with a friend it would be great for both parties. It works or it doesn't. Friends don't want anything from you but your happiness. So it may work for you. 

Personally I think if a man to decides if he wants to be in your life romantically he will ask you out on a date properly. Or make his intentions known. It shouldn't be forced. Bottom line: If a guy is a gentleman with intentions of getting to know you & wanting more than friendship he says so, then makes true on it and understands if you don't want to. Gentlemen take the lead. If a guy doesn't... he chooses your friendship without complaint. Gentlemen don't complain or put down women to others for not going to bed with them. There is no friendzone! Shy guys will step up. Don't confuse that.

Gossip is needless and I don't like rumors and hearsay because it's unkind. They are hurtful untruths that cause pain to others. People truly could think to get clarification before believing or repeating anything anyone says. Buddhism insists you learn the answers for yourself before accepting them as truth and trust no one but yourself for that task. 

My advice to anyone, if you don't like someone stop bothering with knowing their friends, trying to see who they are with, following them around town or talking shit about them. I'm going to keep living because I enjoy what I do, who I know and where I go...

Accidental run-ins are fun for me personally and I love those with people who actually want to see moi when I'm paying attention. 

So this story is the one of the D-men...  Because there aren't always the nicest fellows in the world. Now in hindsight... Not always the nicest ladies either.

IT's NOT ABOUT ANYONE!!!! The stories are just stories! Not a double meaning or life lesson. If you get one... Great, you get one. If not, enjoy it. They aren't personal. It's sad to watch someone spin out over fiction because it's just words. And the D-women are coming. It's been a fun hiatus from sharing and I won't post many. I plan to publish this round. As I'm needing to step back again from writing. 

Please be well and be kind to each other. Love yourselves. The more you love yourself the less likely you will be to harm others. Rumors and lies harm others despite that they are simply words. Don't spread them. You could easily be saying something untrue about your mothers/fathers, grandma/grandpa, daughters/sons, sisters/brothers and friends/cousins. Think about how unhappy it feels for anyone and try to be The Kindest Kind of person you can be.

Enjoy!
Kisses, m. 





Dick
(3-28-2011)

“Dick!”

An open-handed slap accompanies the sharp tongue attached to an irritated woman who has already stormed away as people look on in the otherwise quiet restaurant. It’s a face and name I haven’t seen or heard in a while, but that doesn’t make this moment any less satisfying to watch.

Most women never forget about Dick once they met him. I know cause I never could.

After his date left the table Richard Blackwood sat very still with a smug smile on his face and motioned for the waiter to bring over another bottle of wine. Richard Blackwood was used to hearing his name spoken in this manner. In fact he often took great pleasure in hearing it roll off the tongue of women. He most definitely enjoyed being the thing that rolled out of their mouths. And by ‘this manner’ I am of course referring to the condescending tone. However, to Richard when hearing his name the tone mattered very little at all. Not nearly as much as hearing them say it like that…

Dick.

Whether it was breathy, brash or baritone Richard Blackwood couldn’t seem to get enough when a woman said his name. And in the end they all said it.

Just like that.

Richard Blackwood was an arrogant man with a knack for making everything unpleasant.  He insisted that everyone he met call him Dick. Some women often found this request a bit hard to swallow and were instantly offended. Dick took this opportunity to make their embarrassment as humiliating as possible. Often chastising those women by remarking, “Now a little Dick never hurts now and again, unless you want it to.”

To say he wasn’t a nice man would be a rash understatement. There wasn’t a single person that could stand Dick for more than five minutes. Something was awful in everything he said, especially about others. With his nasty attitude Dick could hardly be mistaken for a human being let alone find himself filled with any type of compassion.

And that was the proverbial icing on the cake.

For you see, Dick Blackwood had the ability to encourage others to see things as miserably as possible and relished in it. Dick could find the unhappiest person in a room and make them feel worse. If ever you doubted your position while standing on the window ledge twenty stories up, Dick would have no problem helping you find your motivation… to jump.

Honestly who wouldn’t after talking to Dick? You might jump, if meant getting away.

Although Dick was far from superior he had something a woman might put up a fight for. Something about the way he wore his pants too tight helped to demonstrate the reason that outweighed his obnoxiousness.

Some men are simply attractive by the qualities they possess. Charm. Finesse. Attitude. Dick wasn’t one of those kinds of men. Attractive came with the package. Like a hotel perk it was a great room with a view that happened to be located in the acid-tripping smoking section. And like the poorly misplaced hotel room, the self -serving arrogant condescending qualities were just the tip of the iceberg. Below the shallow surface lay a man that could only be described in one way…

DICK!

Dick is the kind of man your mother ought to have warned you about, except that chances are she probably wasted her time on him as well. For despite his shortcomings, he definitely had a way with women. An unprecedented way of getting them to do exactly as he wished before making sure they never stuck around for too long. At least that’s what he liked to believe. As with a man like Dick you have to understand he believes he has an agenda. Unbeknownst to him, this way with women had nothing to do with him.

You see, all a woman really wanted from Dick was to come between him and his pants and sometimes that meant more than she bargained for.

Someone might tell you a silence is worth a thousand words. Well that person never met Dick. Dick almost never shut up. He might tell you that your hair is all wrong or that you look like your left leg is shorter than your right. This is before telling you that you’re almost as pretty as the old woman sitting next to you. All of this and more guaranteed to get you to talk to him when talking to him was the last thing you wanted to do.

Somewhere between introducing himself and chatting with a woman he would start in. Slowly but surely he would look for a tiny vulnerability that guaranteed he wouldn’t stop talking. If only to prove that he was completely right by making you completely miserable, but by that point it’s too late. Invested in the stock of flesh and unable to pull out. You’re already in too far to turn back now.

Dick Blackwood happened to be anything but charming when he crossed my path. I met him on the street with his tight pants and unpleasantness. Something on the inside may have told me to go the other way when he said hello but instead I smiled back. And once he started in I couldn’t get enough. I found myself agreeing to so much more than dinner and drinks before I could stop.

Dick used insult and unpleasantness to get what he wanted. Thinking it worked, as it had so many times before, he continued because Dick liked it when he got his way. More than anything else he was contented to recognize this. So it came to me as no surprise when his lack of regard and vanity extended well beyond his introduction.

Dinner with Dick was an exercise in restraint. Everything he had learned about me became fodder for insult. It was always how I was inadequate and when I wasn’t the rest of the restaurant was completely worthless. And when the rest of the world wasn’t worthless he was telling about all the things he wanted to do after he took me home if I didn’t ruin things. My ruining things wasn’t the problem I had worried about when he kept talking. But he continued.

After the first course I stayed when wanted to leave. Even after I thought I had enough of him I remained. When I remember how I wanted to walk away from the table I was wondering how anyone got into bed with this man. Then I realized if I had walked away at dinner instead of putting up with a little more I might never have understood why women took as much as they did from Dick…

Control.

It was the piece of the man that you had right from the start. 

When I think back to that night when I separated that man from his pants. I remember how I let Dick roll off my tongue more times than I can count. And I know what it was that I couldn’t forget. It was the power of knowing what sent that man spinning. Spinning because he thought he had the upper hand and knowing that in one word he couldn’t get enough. And remembering how I walked away from a man like that because it was my decision when I came and left from his life. Something smug continues to widen his grin across from me, when I realize what it is. As he’s pouring the wine his date is coming back. And I can’t blame her. I might have done the same thing.

Tuesday, July 1, 2014

Rejoice

Love & Live without regrets!



I regret nothing in my life. I enjoy. I experience. I appreciate. I give. I show kindness. I don't hold grudges. I apologize. I forgive. I love. Get your facts straight. You judge me. I don't judge you. You haven't bothered to know me because you don't bother to know yourself. Love yourself more.

Rejoice and regret nothing!
Enjoy!
Kisses, m.


Tuesday, April 1, 2014

Still Classy and Fabulous...

Continue to always stay fabulous and classy ladies. Keep loving yourself the most. 
                                         kisses, m. 


Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Portraits - #1

A camera is a poor suggestion and choice of a paperweight. I use mine all the time. Stop being tacky and jealous. Be confident. Love yourself more.

Enjoy!
Kisses, m. 

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Living...

Real Time Stalking: Inauthentic is back for more...



How are you today Inauthentic in Vicksburg? Still stuck at your computer? Go outside. Love yourself more. 


Yesterday's stalk...



Hello Mr. Vicksburg in Jackson, MS,

You call yourself alive?!? So you are "living inauthentic life..." Harassing people on a computer is hardly what I would call living. Well I can't help you with your little problem, except you should learn better grammar. Bygones!

Well let me help a little. Now I see you have no life because this behavior continues... Turn off the computer/your phone and go outside for a bit. You'll thank me later. Especially when you meet a man or woman who authentically loves you. 

Want the definition of inauthentic.... it's you. Don't bother looking in the dictionary. Fame doesn't make a person anymore authentic. The same way as buying things, running around town, name dropping, etc. Nope none of those things. Actually not being famous makes a person more authentic. You can pretend you're from anywhere else but you are really in SoCal. So this is fun, isn't it?

Do you want me to show people who you are? Or are you ready to fall out of love with me or by all means confess your devotion? I like presents. They don't show affections but it doesn't matter since I don't and can't love you back. I still love material objects. Jewelry is best because I can sell it when you leave me. Well I don't love you and I can't tell you fake-ly the lie people tell you because they want you to make them look important. I like to get to know people I fall in love with and I personally have no desire to know you after this behavior. I only date authentic men. You have proven repeatedly you are not. I question your manhood after this. Which I wish I didn't have to but...

Sorry. No I'm not. 

You're inauthentic. Why? Because you spend so much time trying to affect me with this traffic. It's even more inauthentic since... needless to say I don't see it. Really. It's wasted time. You could be doing so much more with your time. Especially since school in back in session. Don't believe me but it's true, I don't see your traffic. I actually have to look for you. 

Which is sooo BORING! But it doesn't bother me. Kisses! 

Well you must like the little favor I've been returning... expect it to continue as long as you bother me I will return in kind. You are really bad at this... it's the truth magician. It's a really sloppy trick you got. I mean why pretend to be anyone else when being yourself takes so much less energy. Besides, I can still see you either way. Want me to show you? Google Analytics isn't hip but other resources are. Please tell your mommy, your family and your tacky bored friends not to bother fighting your battles... it makes you look pathetic. You don't want to be that... do you? Just inauthentic. See ya later  Vicksburg from Jackson, MS on your Android!

Kisses, m.